Sloth: the new discipline
For 2007 I have resolved to make every single blog about writing. Okay, no, not really. That would be boring as all get-out. But I am still a little giddy from my staggeringly disaster-free latest effort, so I might do a few more than usual. I mean, it’s not like anyone’s forced to read them, right? If you’re here for the cutesy Finlay pics, you can skip on by, can’t you? Right. And where possible I will try to relate them to non-writing areas, in order to avoid disappearing up my own butt.
So. To discipline. I have come to suspect that discipline is a myth. These elite athletes who train at four in the morning until their toes bleed; the child violinists who stay locked in their rooms practicing while all their friends are out doing fun stuff like drugs and unprotected sex; we’re supposed to think they’re disciplined. We’re meant to shake our heads in admiration and say, “Wow, she really earned it.” But I reckon what they’ve actually been doing is having a good time and calling it work.
I’ve reached this conclusion because I have no discipline, and I assume my character flaws are shared by the rest of the world. (The good parts are just me.) I work from home. There’s nobody stopping me spending my days browsing girls-with-glasses-having-mudfights.com instead of writing novels. The fact that I do manage to squeeze out a new book now and again is often interpreted as evidence that I must have great discipline. But I write books because I love it. That’s not discipline, is it? Isn’t that just being fortunate enough to get paid for recreation?
When I first decided to give full-time writing a shot—before I was published, by the way, which should tell you how very stupid I was—I was extremely disciplined. I had daily word targets. I graphed my progress. If I fell behind, I would berate myself about wasting precious time. And I did write many words. But I didn’t enjoy it much, and my output fell off, and the book I was writing turned out to be a steaming pile of crap, which I never finished.
I bet the same thing happens if you’re trying to become a professional violinist, or swimmer, or even something more mundane like trying to get into shape. Unless you enjoy the process and take pleasure from practicing, you give up.
Hmm. When I started this blog, I thought it was going to be kind of inspirational. You know, about how there’s not that much separating us normal people from world-class achievers. But now I think about it, you can also read it as a depressing indictment on how people are pathetic they can’t achieve anything unless they get lots of little rewards along the way.
Well, either way.
Note: I didn’t really mean to skip a whole month of blogs there. Sorry about that. I did get a ton of writing done, though, and played with my daughter. So, really, can you complain? I mean, and still sleep at night?
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Marc (#1168)
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Posted: 6295 days ago
Farley (#2933)
Location: Vancouver, Canada
Quote: "YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE!...thanks, that's all I wanted"
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Narain (#824)
Location: Los Angeles, right between civilization and a desert
Quote: "NI!"
Posted: 6295 days ago
Please?
austin (#2462)
Location: rhode island
Quote: "hmmm...bleh..."
Posted: 6295 days ago
Matthias Truxa (#576)
Location: Germany
Quote: "Nonsens"
Posted: 6295 days ago
Have you ever analysed what's that thing you call fun? You may simply be addicted to a condition called flow, you may only seek for acknowledgment (wondering about the english synonyms tribute and credit that really are materialistic), you may only be trapped in routine, or anything having to do with endorphines (on the long run its all about these but it's no very helpful thought). Or you may want to tell the world how you see things or you may be on your own mission to succeed in whatever.
The main advantage of being intrinsically motivated is that one can achieve individual things without being bound to the desires of the market. Thats why peoply would read your blog and books, I think (ok originally the market would be made up of individual interests rather than global ones). On the other hand you cannot really tell _why_ you are doing things, while you can when extrinsically motivated.
You know what? I'd always prefer idealists because it's kind of a mystic thing (and therefore not that determined as our boring world is). I know their work will not simply disappear if noone is there to buy it (because they are doing it for there own sake exclusivly), they'll have more quality than needed and they will be unique.
I never understood how someone can possibly achieve anything without wanting it intrinsically. Obviously some can. And here is the point: As an individual to do something great you have to be motivated intrinsically. As a part in a project that achieves an equal thing you only have to get your paycheck. If the project manager is competent, you may succeed. This way you can work on huge projects without even noticing. It is rather difficult to find more intrinsically motivated people to work on the same project because each of them has got his own vision and you cannot tell someone to do this or that.
Redsword (#2830)
Location: Georgia, U.S.A.
Quote: "Suspicion breeds confidence!"
Posted: 6294 days ago
Kalle (#1278)
Quote: "Sex is herital. If your parents never had it, chanses are you'll never have it either."
Posted: 6294 days ago
You don't blog for the blog's sake, that could be it.
mike (#1842)
Location: Houston
Quote: "It is okay to cry over spilled milk, if you really hate cleaning.."
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Colette (#324)
Location: Houston, Texas, USA
Quote: ""The good Earth â we could have saved it, but we were too damn cheap and lazy" -- Kurt Vonnegut"
Posted: 6294 days ago
It's the whole "positive attitude" thing that is the most difficult part of doing anything. You'll coast along on your bicycle of fun, then you'll hit that steep hill and you have to make an effort. It's hard to pedal up that darn thing, but once you've gritted your teeth and creaked to the top, it's usually worth it.
I'm kind of rambling, but my main point is that chess and writing and swimming and playing the violin (hey! I do that too: I'm a violist, though, not a violinist) are all fun and easy, to a point, then in order to be good and/or successful, you have to pour forth some effort.
John Doe (#797)
Location: Live from Omicron Persei 8
Quote: "You're just jealous because the little voices only talk to me."
Posted: 6294 days ago
Confucius also said "I love girls-with-glasses-having-mudfights.com. It makes me happy.", but that's a whole different story.
Shawna (#2485)
Location: San Francisco, CA
Quote: ""She is a child of ferocious will. She would question the universe if it could answer." - Anon"
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austin (#2462)
Location: rhode island
Quote: "hmmm...bleh..."
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shabooty (#637)
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Quote: "I will shake your foundation. I will shake the f**cking rafters. Nobody'll be the same -Danny Bonaduce ....& go visit my blog @: http://www.shabooty.com"
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austin (#2462)
Location: rhode island
Quote: "hmmm...bleh..."
Posted: 6293 days ago
Michael Ricksand (#2212)
Location: Terra
Quote: "You do not have a right to be stupid."
Posted: 6293 days ago
Marleen (#2741)
Location: Canada
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Sudi (#2895)
Location: Ithaca, 10 square miles surrounded by reality
Quote: "Mostly lucid"
Posted: 6292 days ago
Right.
JB (#2465)
Location: Southern Illinoise
Quote: "I love you so much, now let's get something to eat."
Posted: 6292 days ago
Like it or not, lazy or not, some people are just better than you at stuff.
I remember meeting this one MFA Creative Writing student who was 39 and talked about still having time to catch up with Bret Easton Ellis. Good luck.
Kit (#850)
Location: UK
Posted: 6289 days ago
Like it or not, lazy or not, some people are just better than you at stuff. "
That's debatable.
austin (#2462)
Location: rhode island
Quote: "hmmm...bleh..."
Posted: 6289 days ago
JB (#2465)
Location: Southern Illinoise
Quote: "I love you so much, now let's get something to eat."
Posted: 6288 days ago
Sudi (#2895)
Location: Ithaca, 10 square miles surrounded by reality
Quote: "Mostly lucid"
Posted: 6288 days ago
which brings me to a question for his great maxiness- are you ever going to consider writing a novel about the consultants taking over the world AND all its money- the big five to be general- the 'progeny of kinsey' to be more specific (i never knew Mc was 'progeny of')
Ian Mond (#2538)
Location: Melbourne
Quote: "BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
Posted: 6288 days ago
Here's the link: http://mondyboy.livejournal.com/
Mondy
Mike Reason (#2743)
Location: Rhode Island, USA
Quote: ""Carpe Diem!""
Posted: 6285 days ago
Julian Bennett Holmes (#2209)
Location: New York, NY USA
Posted: 6283 days ago
I saw you here last time, that was cool.
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